Update on my Dreads

It occurs to me that I didn’t really explain why I felt so compelled to put my hair into dreadlocks. The thing is, there were lots of reasons, but the biggest one was that I have been feeling so lost lately. 

I feel like I’m wondering through life, marriage, motherhood without a map. And, although that’s just life, it’s never bothered me much before. Even though I couldn’t guarantee my future, I’ve always had at least a rough plan of what I wanted to happen in my life. And I just have no plan anymore. My life makes zero sense these days, and I feel like I’m losing my mind most days.

So I guess I just needed to have some way to take control. I needed to be in charge of something in my life, even if it just my physical appearance. So I got my nose pierced and put my hair into dreadlocks. Both of those things, by the way, I’ve wanted for a long time and just never had the courage until now.

So, now I’m 27 dreads in, with a few sections left to put into dreads! Thing is, my head is beyond itchy!! If I didn’t have a pre-existing itchy scalp, maybe it wouldn’t be such an issue, but i was already using t-gel every time I washed my hair to help my scalp. Now, it’s just gotten so bad! I’ve decided that I can’t take it anymore. I’m going to comb my dreads out. Maybe I’ll leave one or two underneath because I love them so much, but we’ll see. I hate doing this because I was so insistent on doing it, but it must be done. I can’t stay up all night itching again!

At least I still have my nose ring.

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A New Journey

A while back, I came across this girl online who is one of the most naturally beautiful women I’ve ever seen. And she happened to have dreadlocks. I was in awe! She was this seriously pretty girl with a hairstyle that I had never thought looked that great, and she somehow pulled it off! I hunted all over Pinterest for more girls with dreadlocks, and I realized that they can actually look way cool.

This was about a year or so ago. Fast forward to just a couple weeks ago, and I suddenly get this urge to look at more girls with dreads. I just couldn’t get enough! I started imagining myself with dreads. Would I look good in tight, neat dreads? Or messy, unkept dreads? Would I even look cool??

I decided that yes, I would look cool. I also decided that messy and unkept was the way to go. And I actually decided to go for it!

Of course, my husband wasn’t/isn’t thrilled. But we began talking and I realized that this need for this extreme hairstyle comes from this feeling of dissatisfaction. Not that I’m not happy with my life. More, I’m just unhappy with myself. I told my husband that I just don’t feel like the person that I was several years ago. It’s more than just the fact that I’m a mother now. I truly don’t feel like the same person I once was. And I need a way to express that.

So, I got my nose pierced and I’m doing my hair in dreadlocks. Normal stuff. Hehe!

I’ve already started my dreads, but I’m doing them myself without products, so they’re taking a while to finish. I’ve got about a third of my head done, but hopefully I’ll be done by the end of next week! They won’t be “mature” for a few months, at least, but I’ve got to start somewhere. I’m really excited to wear cute beads and wraps in my hair!

Everyone seems to think I’ll stop showering or stop shaving, or just turn into a hippie, but please. I’ll still wash my hair once a week (and shower my body every other day), which is how often I wash it without dreads! So I’ll still be clean. And I like my style (usually), so I can’t really see myself going full flower-child with my clothing choices. Maybe…but probably not. And I already am pretty hippie, or “crunchy.” We use cloth diapers, I’m still breastfeeding my child at nearly 16 months old, we bed-share most of the time, I baby-wear, and I LOVE natural cleaning products! 

Seriously, people. Dreadlocks were the natural next step.

I’ll update once I actually finish my whole head, but I’m considering starting a new blog just for my dreads. Maybe a YouTube channel. But I’m not sure if I have the time/energy for all that! Let me know in the comments if you’d be interested in seeing videos or a dread-dedicated blog!